A year later brings me to a very different place than where I was last year.
Last year was graduation from music college. Last year saw me learning what stress and anger and missing my family was all about. Last year saw me struggling to memorize Hadyn and what Neopolitan chords are and how many places I could plug a patch chord into. Last year saw me in a loving relationship with my best friend, and me singing on a platform to him in front of family and friends Am I Good Enough for you to love me too? Last year brought me to Vegas, and Victoria BC, and Grande Prairie, and a summer of holistic healing in PA. Last year another friend of mine got married. Last year saw me move 3 times. Last year was a time I came to more peace, within. Last year saw me praying again. Last year saw less fights and more positive conversation, more hugs, more love. Last year saw me falling in love with New York, a different side I've never seen before since always traveling with family. Last year saw me go to my first Trans-Siberian Orchestra - a visionary and musical experience I'll never forget.

I can't say I grew much, or had anything too dynamic happen to me, or that I learned much last year. I can't even say it was a necessary year. But then when I look back I realize I have a diploma that shows I can teach piano. And compose soundtracks. And pass a grueling theory test and come out with an A. And perform playing piano, singing, and having my own pieces performed, plus producing two shows. I have a better immune system, and am feeling better than I have in a while. I have walked away from the love of my life, because I have faith God wants me to be with someone who respects me, and more importantly loves Him. I have friends that although very far, will always want me in their life. I have a super great job - something I've always dreamed of doing at some point. And tho it's not forever, it is good for me now. Office in downtown Calgary, wearing the chic pencil skirts, silk blouses from Banana Republic, pointy-toed shoes from Guess, it's my life now. I have a renewed vision for composing movie scores, and am pursuing schooling in NYC. No, last year was not a waste by any means.
 
And now, a year later. Sees me working the office scene, learning the politics, introduced to real money. This year sees me owning my own stage piano, a Roland RD 700 SX, and software to compose with. This year is seeing me very independant. This year is seeing me as an adult. This year is showing me not to be vunerable, but still be myself. This year is bringing me renewed courage in my beliefs. This year has seen me reading Jane Austen, and Agatha Christie and The Music Lesson, and most recently Blue Like Jazz. This year sees me in love with my mom - and learning what its like for the child to have the reversed role. This year sees me confident, and focused, and branching out in my art tastes. Live theatre, live concerts, art and dance galas.

I'm looking forward to what the next 7 months bring. hopefully its acceptance into the music university. Hopefully it's a stronger commitment to God. Hopefully its that one person who needs me. Hopefully its ALIVE-life, laughter, and music. No matter what hopefully its the juorney, its the climb.

Hurt by Christina....it's a sweet song...I'm going to learn it...think I could learn to sing it???

Just quick here - cause I'm SUPER busy with working two jobs, and finals looming up, and two concerts, one of which is our best-of year-end show.

School is ok...stressful, but I think I'm doing ok in all the classes. One of them is frustrating - COMM - but necessary to graduate. Aural is my best class. Imaginary got into our afternoon concert this Thursday of which Im crazy excited!! I'm playing the piano for that and doing back-up vocals. hmmm, what else? Ok just the regular drama of college life with a bunch of kids .

I've been wanting to put pictures up here - but it takes time dudes! Let's just hope that once school is over I can have a few days to take a breath or something. I really need it.

I went home for a couple days during Reading Week which was really nice. It was totally unexpected, but sweet. Apparently Vic is counting down the days til I come back - in June - for Naomi's grad....aw isn't that precious??

*sigh* Well I'm going to sign off for now, but I'm hoping to go back to GP for the summer. I just need to find a place to live. Alas it's not looking good. Looking like I'm going to have to stay here in boring, lonely, rude RD for the summer

Well I'm totally lacking sleep, but at least I'm doing what I love - playin piano!! Miss everyone lots and lots!!!